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作者: 紫荆棘鸟    时间: 2021-2-1 19:34
标题: 阿西莉:Life Is Beautiful
本帖最后由 紫荆棘鸟 于 2022-1-28 00:24 编辑

注:阿西莉 是 Ashley 的音译。这是一位很漂亮也很善良的女孩,两年前本科毕业,随后作为联合国维和部队一名义工驻扎在北非摩洛哥中部的某个小城。她曾说她的理想是当一名外交官,计划在维和部队当两到三年的义工,算是积累一些经验,在个人简历 resume 上加上有说服力的一笔。当然,义工只是名义上不领薪水,但基本的生活费和必备的开销(例如手机电脑吃饭住宿等)还是有的,所以她在摩洛哥的生活没有任何问题,最主要的还是文化环境的巨大差异,以及难以排弃的孤单与孤独。去年这个时候,全世界除了中国外,新冠病毒还没有爆发,我在欧洲旅游时(生平第一次去欧洲)还特意去了摩洛哥看望这位善良、坚强的女孩,把她给高兴坏了。我现在手头还有几枚摩洛哥的硬币,呵呵。

去年大约四月份(?),病毒开始肆虐摩洛哥。摩洛哥在非洲不算很差,但毕竟属于穷国,卫生条件等跟不上,阿西莉只得飞回老家。回到老家后不知啥原因,新冠病毒还是没有放过她,据说五月份中招了。她很不幸,是我认识的人中唯一一个明确中招的。阿西莉虽然年轻,但兴许体质不怎么样,她中招后,还进过医院,虽然没有大碍,但病情几经反复,心态也几经反复。新年伊始,阿西莉终于在家乡附近找到了一份喜欢的工作,她的生活自此翻开了新的一页。下面的 Life Is Beautiful 是她在感染新冠后的一篇小随笔文章。和 Ashley 之所以比较熟,是因为离得比较近,大约 2~3 公里吧,但分属属于不同的小镇辖区。以前在教堂认识的,她是教堂的义工,我则是教堂的“寄生虫”,我属于被洗脑的那一种,满脑子的无知无畏,充其量不鄙视上帝而已,时不时去教堂也只是因为让小南瓜洗洗脑,找一些玩伴。Ashley 就负责几个相似的毛孩子的看管,例如玩皮球,涂颜色,剪纸等等。


    阿西莉和朋友在摩洛哥的 Mednes 城。



阿西莉 @ Ouzoud 瀑布。这个瀑布是非洲十大瀑布之一(据说),离她所在的小城大约一个半小时车程。摩洛哥北部是北阿特拉斯山脉(Atlas Range),南部属于 High Atlas Range, 阿特拉斯山脉虽然以北面沿海的山脉为主体(在突尼斯附近没入地中海,和西西里岛以及意大利/亚平宁半岛很明显属于同一山脉),但  High Atlas Range 却更高大。Ouzoud 瀑布就在 High Atlas Range 的北麓。往南,越过山脉,就是撒哈拉沙漠。





    摩洛哥风光


维和部队的义工们 (在欧洲合影,具体哪里我不清楚)

--------------   Life Is Beautiful ----------------
In the bleak and uncertain and the shaky too. I've been listening to this country song (unsurprising I know) this past month since that day I left my life that had just begun taking hold after months of building a foundation in my community in Morocco...and it's just stuck with me because it's how I've felt - messy (look it up if you want by chase rice). Starting from feeling like my heart was being torn from me taking that bus away from home at sunrise looking out the window with so much uncertainty, disbelief. I took a picture and immediatelly felt silly - I wasn't really leaving why take a picture of what I see every day.. and if I was leaving I'd be right back in no more than a couple weeks right?

Flitting between being seemingly totally fine to utterlly broken in another moment. Feeling guilty because so many others have lost immeasurablly more than me throughout the world over this virus - I can't get caught up in the little I've had happen.

Under it all though, I still feel the pain of the goodbyes I didn't get to say. The people I left behind. The suddenness of it all. Being reminded of how little I seemed to know just a month ago.

Trying to move forward but being caught in memories.

You know memories aren't curses that prevent us from moving on - they can be sweet reminders of the people places and pieces of life that have been used to change and shape and sculpt us into who we are becoming. Sometimes life doesn't check to see if we're ready though.

And it's been hard. And that's ok. There's no use pretending it hasn't. No reason to pretend I don't miss before. And if it's been hard for you, I'm here, I will listen.

Let's not be disappointed in other people right now, let's be understanding.

In a note underlying all of this - this year, 2020, since the beginning a theme for me has been realizing over and over how strikingly intentional God is. He doesn't have arw accidents. And I've been noticing that from a new lens yet again as the year has turned to spring.


作者: 白水    时间: 2021-2-1 22:09
认识一个人,了解多少事。
作者: yxq一叶扁舟    时间: 2021-2-2 10:02
交际——拓展认知、了解更多。这些勇敢年轻的孩子们,敢于去维和部队做义工,也是用自己的青春书写和平的意义。为阿西莉点赞!
作者: 义夫义    时间: 2021-2-2 11:49
感谢老师分享。问好!
向阿西莉及所有的义工致敬!

作者: 紫荆棘鸟    时间: 2021-2-7 07:44
白水 发表于 2021-2-1 22:09
认识一个人,了解多少事。

就如同邻家小妹那种,一家子都是基督教教徒,很普通很善良的。
作者: 紫荆棘鸟    时间: 2021-2-7 09:11
yxq一叶扁舟 发表于 2021-2-2 10:02
交际——拓展认知、了解更多。这些勇敢年轻的孩子们,敢于去维和部队做义工,也是用自己的青春书写和平的意 ...

许多孩子脑袋里还存在“诗和远方”,有时很佩服他们,尽管我们也是从那个年纪走过来的。
阿西莉感染新冠后,实际上至今都没有痊愈,尽管也没有很大的问题,但她就是难以痊愈。但其心态很平和,有啥情绪也是自己消化。
这个坛子里不少人愚昧自私,坛子之外,这十年来越来越多的人变得愈发狭隘冷血不可理喻,有点有感而发。
作者: 紫荆棘鸟    时间: 2021-2-7 09:12
义夫义 发表于 2021-2-2 11:49
感谢老师分享。问好!
向阿西莉及所有的义工致敬!

老义新春愉快,顺祝大家新年更上一层楼。
作者: 云上云上    时间: 2021-2-7 15:38
大智大勇的阿西莉令人敬佩。祝福这位坚强善良的女孩子早日康复,事事顺心如意!照片非常清晰,也给您点赞,谢谢。
作者: 紫荆棘鸟    时间: 2021-2-9 09:40
云上云上 发表于 2021-2-7 15:38
大智大勇的阿西莉令人敬佩。祝福这位坚强善良的女孩子早日康复,事事顺心如意!照片非常清晰,也给您点赞, ...

云版新春愉快!
作者: 一个放羊娃    时间: 2021-2-9 09:52
为阿西莉点赞,为维和军人点赞!
作者: 云上云上    时间: 2021-2-10 18:56
紫荆棘鸟 发表于 2021-2-9 09:40
云版新春愉快!

谢谢,也祝您新春快乐,阖家团圆。幸福安康!




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